Much of the last few days have been joyless. I felt like things have regressed... It's rather hard for me to understand myself. But I feel like I've been living without courage, and so joy as well.

School's over a week now, I can move on... Been doing DIY at the house, and some days not getting any rest... (Today was pretty tough up on the roof, replacing skylights.)

I've sort of been here a couple of days now, and I do feel better somewhat. But I feel like I'm close to madness still. I don't think I can stay where I am anymore.